Night, the beloved. Night, when words fade and things come alive. When the destructive analysis of the day is done, and all that is truly important becomes whole and sound again. When man reassembles his fragmentary self and grows with the calm of a tree.
- Antoine de Saint-Exupery
This has easily been one of the top 7 most physically and emotionally and mentally draining weeks of my life, and I haven't even met my students yet. We have been going through so much material, and the days are so long. Yesterday was 4:30am Wednesday -1:30am Thursday (I took a nap, not a full night's sleep but a 3 hour nap, and had to get
going again at 4:30 am this morning). That's a 21 hour day, y'all. We had a working lunch, but I got to eat dinner in peace. I was working/attending sessions the entire
time. I'm the kind of person that really values alone time, and I get none of it. Sometimes I just sit quietly in the bathroom and it feels like heaven. It's pitiful, I know. On top of all this, I have a cold I can't seem to get rid of. I spend all day coughing and blowing my nose. I need some encouragement. I'm so unsure of what the coming days are going to look like and feel like. I don't know when I'll be able to really rest. I miss Geoffrey so, so much. I miss Watson. My life is so busy I had to schedule time to have a stress-relieving cry. I combined it with shower time to be more efficient. You think I'm joking, but I'm really not.
3 comments:
YES YES YES. My same exact feelings.
We'll get through this, chica!
I’ve been reading your blog. Loving it! I so relate to you with the needing alone time thing. That was the hardest part about induction and institute for me last year. We had an advantage being at the Atlanta institute b/c we had our own rooms, but sometimes that wasn’t enough. I’d eat alone, go to Target alone, go for a long drive alone on the weekend. It kept me sane You’ll get a hang of the lesson planning stuff soon and with that will come more sleep. Next week it gets harder and easier at the same time. Actually teaching and continuing to lesson plan will be tough, but you’ll also have actual kids in front of you, and they are wonderful and make it worth it, and thus make it easier.
Congrats on the job at Soulsville! When you’re back in Memphis we should go to Earnestine and Hazel’s. You’re right that you need to go, the Soul Burger is delish and the place itself is just fun!
-Christa
Hang in there, Amber! Institute is hard. Hard, hard, hard. You're gonna rock it. Hang tough, even if you ARE a Bama fan I know you can do it (Go Vols!)
Andy
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